Thursday, June 28, 2012

A Chink

Remember this post about Opening My Hands? Well, it is still my goal in these long months of waiting on a baby. First the update:
We are officially a "waiting family" with Bethany Christian Services. In order to be a waiting family we had to
1. Fill out a huge stack of paperwork
2. Go through an interview process (including a home visit)
3. Attend an orientation meeting
4. Create a family profile book
Those three things are (finally) completed. Because of getting a new leader, our Bethany office didn't have an orientation meeting for 6 months. This is pretty unusual, and we just happened to start our process right as they were having the one 6 months before ours. Bummer. Anyway, as soon as the meeting was over, I quickly got our profile book done and then here we are...waiting.
And last night I had another of those moments. The kind where I forget that my story is, "He has withheld no good thing from me" and that my song is, "Oh the Deep Deep Love of Jesus."

O the deep, deep love of Jesus, vast, unmeasured, boundless, free!
Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to Thy glorious rest above!
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, spread His praise from shore to shore!
How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth never, nevermore!
How He watches o’er His loved ones, died to call them all His own;
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth o’er them from the throne!
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, love of every love the best!
’Tis an ocean full of blessing, ’tis a haven giving rest!
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, ’tis a heaven of heavens to me;
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee!

So I cry and I'm grumpy with the hubby and I go to bed feeling tired and completely drained. Then this morning He woke me up for a run. My limbs were "as lead," as they say, and if I had been on a tread mill, I would have fallen off exhausted. But I didn't and I got to see this
(it was even better in person)

and I got to hear Isaiah 43-48 as I ran...

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the Lord your God"
"Fear not, for I am with you;
I will bring your descendants from the east,
And gather you from the west;
I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’
And to the south, ‘Do not keep them back!’
Bring My sons from afar,
And My daughters from the ends of the earth—
Everyone who is called by My name,
Whom I have created for My glory;
I have formed him, yes, I have made him.”

(what a promise!)
"Yet hear now, O Jacob My servant,
And Israel whom I have chosen.
Thus says the Lord who made you
And formed you from the womb, who will help you:
‘Fear not, O Jacob My servant;
And you, Jeshurun, whom I have chosen.
For I will pour water on him who is thirsty,
And floods on the dry ground;
I will pour My Spirit on your descendants,
And My blessing on your offspring;
They will spring up among the grass
Like willows by the watercourses."

I couldn't ask for more specific encouragement. And as I ran I remembered my song and my story. And no, waiting is no easier, but somehow I feel I can manage another day. As long as I focus on him I can trust for one more day that He has a good plan and He will use me in it.



  1. Hang in there. Remember when your blue house was on the market and when it sold 14 months later, your new yellow house had only been on the market for 2 weeks? In His time.

  2. Beautiful words regarding a beautiful woman and this chapter in her beautiful life's story. You are very much in my thoughts and prayers. Wish we could have talked more today! But so glad the Lord is meeting you in the waiting....

  3. Waiting is so rough isn't it? Just like little children we kick and scream when when don't get what we want right when we want it. But, like the scripture you highlighted and the song that was placed on your heart today, waiting is but for a moment - you grow - your grow some more and Yes, God is with you through it all.

  4. Praying for you through this time of waiting. So thankful that God has your future planned out perfectly - even if the details aren't fully clear yet.